VaniLA favor…..

今晚真係好想寫Ｄ野！從晚會返嚟後，我著住saree同英國男仔係客廳談天說地。當我地大家都諗到我地全屋人就快要各 東西時，大家都有Ｄ無奈，因為大家都對對方好好，我地apartment就好似一家人咁。英國男仔突然同我講佢鐘意法國女仔，但法國女仔好明顯無感覺，我只好安慰佢。唔知點解我有Ｄ好奇怪嘅感覺，可能我又羨藄法國女仔有人鍚，又有Ｄ同情英國男仔。我真係睇會到咩叫「日久生情」

今日我終於忍唔住打俾佢，無骨氣！原來佢都有嘗試發sms俾我，但我無收到，聽到後我都無咁唔開心。原本以為４日無傾計，佢會好掛住我。可能我有Ｄ期望，可能佢真係好攰，同佢講完電話，我有Ｄ失落感。我發現我需要嘅一樣野，佢以家俾唔到我….. 我開始明白點解Ｄ人會有婚外情。我唔係想話我有，但真係好tempting. 當你嘅男人已經習慣０左你嘅存在時，對你嘅關心慢慢減少；同時間你嘅男同屋係你打扮完會經過你間房，定定地望住你話：「你今日好靚！」，又會好細心，好容易慢慢鐘意一個人或對多個男性產生好感。我以家真係好深深體會到longD會令雙方感情變質，或變心。我好亂，我好想快Ｄ見到佢，我好想證實我係因為太掛住佢，所以胡思亂想…….

已經４日啦！佢連email都無send俾我, 我都send左sms話俾佢知我唔舒服，但……… 我係咪應該視為分手？我唔想咁分，我想知道究竟發生咩事？連我唔舒服都唔問候下，難道咁仲唔明顯？我唔知呀，好亂，好暈……. 但我見到Ｄ靚野仲仍然買俾佢，連Lynn (台灣同事都話我好好)，但我嘅理性話俾我聽我好蠢！

我覺得上帝對我都叫唔話得，係我既唔舒服，又個個出哂街(無mood)。如果唔係Aki生日，仲要係全部都係女仔去食飯，我都唔會出去。出門前，我家嘅兩個男仔返嚟，Colin同Maciej。其實真係無咩心情，只好打扮一下，加上對男人嘅自信已經被打碎，但佢地兩個都讚我今日好靚，我突然覺得我好幸福，有Ｄ咁sweet嘅flatmates，好安慰！(PS:家里(Sliver Oaks)無人知道我以家情況，唔想小題大做)

愛，原來是很覆雜~

真係好耐無係渡寫過０野！成日都好想寫Ｄ野，但又覺得無人會睇（鬼咩，邊個叫我成半年都無掂過自己個blog呀……..），所以成日都懶得寫。不過，唔知點解今日突然間有Ｄ諗法同行為都有Ｄ異常。今朝突然早０左１個鐘頭起身，突然覺得壓力好大，突然好勤力工作，突然好想用廣東話寫blog，突然之間發現原來當你知道無人會睇時, 可以寫咩都得，暢所欲言……… 突然之間發現原來我一直都介意人地點睇我，原來我一直都活係一個匡匡里面，一個自己set俾自己嘅匡匡。

我覺得我幸運有我以個男朋友，佢竟然容許我做好多市面上嘅男朋友唔俾做嘅野。雖然大家都要longD好耐，但大家都對大家抱好大信心，我覺得好難得！其實２００７年前我覺得我地一定會分開，但佢竟然比以前對我更好，我覺得佢又比以前成熟了！希望可以維持落去啦！

2007年1月1日，同Lynn一起係Varkala倒數後，突然有一個新年大計﹣﹣﹣就係下年要同詠詠一起過x’mas同倒數！因為以個x’mas 好掛住佢,我都知道佢都係^^

当小敏收到小猪的图片后……
小敏: 0吾好玩啦, 做乜拿自己0果面具出0黍賣啊?
小猪: 0吾係呀! 我0岩0岩去完上海返0黍, 係上海D人淹制的猪头, 好恐怖~
小敏: ………… (想嘔~)

	An awesome film, a real story happened half century ago, “The End of the Spear”. In the Ecuadorian jungles of the Amazon, the Waodani people, one of the most violent societies on the planet, live totally cut off from civilization. Their homicide rate has brought them to the brink of extinction. One of their tribal leaders is Mincayani. Somewhere not far away along the Amazon, five young North American missionaries and their families have set out to find the Waodani. Nate Saint, Jim Elliott, Pete Fleming, Ed McCully and Roger Youderian eventually locate the Waodani village and find a sandbar on which to land their small plane. When one of the tribesmen lies that the foreigners on the sandbar have abducted and killed a tribeswoman, Mincayani and his fellow warriors find their site and spear the five Americans. The missing missionaries make headlines in the world’s media and a search ensues. When the Waodani see the helicopter and the size of the search party they think the foreigners will take their revenge, so they burn their huts and flee deeper into the jungle. Within months of the killings, a Waodani woman who had fled the tribe, helps gain entry into the tribe for the wife of one missionary and the sister of another, as well as Nate’s son, Steve. In time, they come to live with the Waodani and through a series of events the spearing that was destroying the tribe comes to an end. Steve wants to learn which warrior killed his father. He leaves the tribe as a boy with this question unanswered. Steve returns as an adult when his aunt, Rachel Saint, who had spent the rest of her life with the Waodani, dies. The Waodani want Steve to live with them the way Rachel did, but Steve’s unanswered questions keep him from agreeing. Mincayani takes Steve to the river where his father was killed and confesses to spearing him. At that moment, Steve and Mincayani are forced to confront the true meaning of the life and death of Steve’s father and the other men who were killed….. There is also documentary part after the film. It was about the experience once Steve brought Mincayani to the State. You can see the real faces of this 2 persons. Highly recommend~

以下是中文版本, 但没有英文版本那么详细:

< 茅尾>, 一套发生在近这五十年之间的真人真事, 超感动……

1956年，五名立志将基督之名传播到蛮夷之地的传教士，耐特、吉姆、皮特、艾迪和罗杰抛弃了在美国的舒适安宁生活，乘飞机进入厄瓜多尔的原始丛林，希望能够向当地尚未开化的印第安部落Waodani族土著宣讲福音，然而不幸的是，他们几乎刚刚踏上这个部落的领地，就被手持长矛的印第安人杀害。

明卡亚尼是Waodani部落的勇敢战士，他目睹了几位传教士被杀害的整个过程，也看到他们虽然手持枪械却始终未扣动扳机，直到被害前也坚决不放弃自己的宗教信仰，战斗结束之后，明卡亚尼找到传教士的遗物，并期待着能够再见到这些外面世界来的人，以便有机会解开自己心头的这些疑问。

两年后，其中两位传教士的妻子和妹妹来到厄瓜多尔的热带雨林，心怀她们所爱之人的遗志，重新向部落居民宣传福音，在这里她们再次遇到已经成为部落首领的明卡亚尼……

这是我在北京的小组成员! 有人说我们的小组像 Little BICF (北京国际教会), 嘿嘿, 我们也觉得有点想^^ 我们小组虽然只有十几个人, 但来自的地方也不少: 美国的不同地方, 日本, 韩国, 马来西亚, 泰国, 台湾, 越南, 菲律宾, 星加坡…… 当然还有我这个香港代表:) , 在我来之前还好像还有荷兰人和菲洲人…..

我们每个星期在Marc的家开小组, 每个星期日都一起返BICF WEST的教会 (我有时会返EAST, 因为有香港人的小组) ,有时还会约出来看看电影或KTV. 其实大家都不是认识了很久, 有些人来了几个月就回国, 但个个都好真, 好玩得, 好开心! 在这段时间, 好多Farewell, 好多人都要回国了. 其中有个朋友说, 好不舍得北京, 不想回国, 就是因为认识了我们这班朋友….. 听了以后, 我的心都酸了, 说实话, 我也有同感

感谢上帝, 为安排我那么多~ 不止小组的弟兄姐妹, 还有好多好多其他的好朋友…… 我在北京的生活因你们而精彩!!